Monday, 16 July 2012

Holiday photos!

So you all wan a see my holiday pics right??


You know I'm gona show you anyway ;p

I actually took like 500 photos! So I think I'll just show you the ones with good stories behind them :) (ignore my ugs drunkeness!!)

So on the first night we thought we'd just head out for a quick cocktail but that didn't happen!
Gaby actually got so drunk 2 really sweet guys had to carry her back.
So much for our quiet drink...

Why we encouraged them to drink more is beyond me :S

At the beach :)

Developed a new love of pole dancing ;P

Our T's on the strip :)

"The Tease"
Nic's new bestie

leg-up ;)

Definitely not worrying about the calories ;)


I had some great dance moves...

Enjoying my food :)

Best bartender ever!

The night spain won :) 


Our "family" drinking game ;P

Only nics ;P

At the waterpark :)

almost filling it out ;P

We love O'neils!

Jess <3

My 18th surprise party!

Mad pole skills ;)

Free cocktails!

& I even ended the last night enjoying a kebab :)

The holiday was just what I needed & I actually came back feeling so different.
I kinda felt like I grew up a lot, I realised a lot of things.
I did feel conscious on the holiday, but unlike before I just ignored that thought & had fun!
I wouldn't say I'm 100% fine, but I don't think anyone is.
Right now I feel so much more comfortable in my life.
It's been a hard year, but I've made it, and right now I'm happier than ever.

How's your summer going?
Lots of love,
ali Ox

Saturday, 14 July 2012


So been meaning to post about this like all week, but better late than never ey? ;p aha
But anyway,Tenerife was AMAZING!!
Like fuhgjshnawkfhrfbbf AMAZING!!
Literally spent all week shopping, swimming, clubbing and drinking!
All my favourite things! :)

But the reason why I loved it so so much was that out there it was like I wasn't ill at all.
Before I was so so low, but out there it all just went away.
I was just so happy to be around my best mates & I was able to eat without any problems at all!
I guess I just felt really proud (sounding vain here!! aha) but I could have easily restricted. I mean my mates would quite easily fall for ana's tricks compared to my parents but I stuck to my guns & now I'm confident that if I go to uni I will still eat.
Don't get me wrong, the thoughts are still there. I kinda feel like it'll be a long, long time before they start to go away. But now I'm not as tempted to give in. So maybe I am nearly there?

I think the holiday was just what I needed.
It really did make me feel so normal again.
It was hard, and at first I was so scared but towards the end of the week it was as if I didn't have depression at all :).
I just hope this feeling will last!
Anyway missed blogging a lot!!
What have you all been up to?

Love ali Ox

I'm back!!

So after weeks of not blogging I'm finally back!!
I feel like I keep casually leaving :/
Things have been crazy literally I got back from Tenerife & then it was my 18th on thursday.
So I've got a lot to fill you in on!!
Missed you all lots! Sorry for my lack of replies/comments. Will do it soon!

So much love,
ali Ox

Monday, 2 July 2012


Hey girlies!
Missing blogging so much!! aha
How have you all been?

Literally having the best holiday! So many great stories to tell you all!
I´ve literally been so happy!! It´s like the last month we´re I was so depressed, so unhappy didn´t even exist.
I feel so healthy right now, so normal.
I feel like I´m well recovered :)
Anyway only have 1 minute till my time runs out just wanted to hope youre all well & promise I will email, comment etc soon!!

Much love,
ali Ox