I love shopping.
Like actually love it!!
Getting ready for my hol I've been shopping so much!!
On monday I headed up to Oxford St. to get everything for my hol & it was so much fun!
Okay slightly worrying that I seriously had the best time shopping by myself...
But it was so good!! aha
It was weird I wasn't anxious at all.
I was so scared to go & to see all the mirrors, but it didn't actually bother me that much.
For the first time I was actually looking at the clothes, not just my body.
It made me realise that I am so close to full recovery now :).
A few days ago I was thinking ahh if only I could loose a few kg before my holiday.
But the last few days have made me realise its so not worth it.
I don't love my body now, but I can deal with it.
And I'd much rather like my body less than be trapped into ana's cycle again.
I think the sessions in the clinic yesterday really helped, they made me realise how small a sacrifice I'm making.
All it is is being a few pounds heavier, but I gain so much for that.
Health, happiness, energy, its just so worth it!
We can do this girlies,
Love ali Ox