Today I ate my sunday dinner & dessert!
Okay doesn't sound like a huge thing but I just felt so so disgustingly big today that I was kinda planning on restricting...
But I wouldn't let myself resort to that.
So after our sunday dinner my mum offered us all dessert. Usually I wouldn't even respond; I would think why would I ate when I've just eaten? I don't have to eat again till at least another 3 hours, so why would I eat something hugely calorific when I'm not hungry?
But today I thought well all my family are having dessert, I guess it is actually normal to eat not just because you need to, but because something tastes nice. So today I took a slice of apple pie :) tbh it actually wasn't amazing, hopefully next week I'll convince her to get sticky toffee pudding! :)
Literally that dessert is to die for!
Anyway after eating the apple pie I was like just go be sick, its so easy, no-one will notice & to be honest I even walked up to the bathroom ready to. But I just couldn't let myself do that. So I stopped, sat down & really thought about it. It was hard for me to take dessert, why would I destroy my efforts?
This evening I am quite panicky but I'll be at the clinic for the next few days & things are always better there :). I'm really nervous because I know I'm going to flop my exam on thursday & spending all my time at the clinic instead of revising probably isn't the best idea? But I need to go, theres no point me revising hard if in the exam I'm still feeling like this...
anyway hope you all had a good weekend,