So after my month away thought I'd tell you a little bit about what I've been up to :)
This month has been good. It's been up and down but overall I've enjoyed so many moments. There's been so many challenges but I've kept fighting and it's definitely been worth it.
I guess this month I've focused on my friends. I've stressed less about school and just kind of relaxed. Probably not the best idea as I really need to start studying, but its been so fun :) haha.
I've been out for meals, been clothes shopping, been with my friends. All the things which I stopped myself from doing I started to do again. I finally have control over my life, and it feels amazing!
Yes I do have bad ed days, worrying thoughts and sometimes they do get the better of me. I've still got a long way to go but I feel more steady on my road to recovery.
I guess I wanted to start blogging again because I feel I can handle it now. I feel more normal again, more myself :). I was worried before that I was giving bad advice, encouraging your eds, but now I feel in a much better place, like the best I've felt ever.
I have to be honest with you guys and say another reason why I've started is I feel like I'm slipping up alot recently. I'm eating like a normal person, but I'm not fully trying to gain weight. I guess it annoys me I'm so much more comfortable with how I look now, even before I had an ed. So why do I need to gain weight and change that? I know this is probably my ed talking so I thought I'd call out to you girlies for some advice :).
So, I just wanted to say my love goes out to all of you! And I really want to know how you're getting along?
So proud of you all, Ali Ox