Today didn't go so well.
I lost 0.8kg. It may not sound like alot but I'm so annoyed!
I really wanted to gain. I wanted to prove that I was getting better, that I wasn't just wasting everyone's time. But I've done the opposite.
I've got one last chance.
I've got 2 weeks to gain or that's it, they're giving up on me.
Im so mad at myself!
Why did I let this happen?
The only good thing is now I'm motivated like hell to eat.
Not eating means no more help.
Not eating means making it harder and harder to recover.
Not eating means giving in.
The next few weeks are going to be hell, but I can and will get through them.
I have to.