Today has been tough.
Ive been so low but I've kept eating.
I've realised that no matter how I'm feeling I must eat.
I have to fight this now, or I never will.
On a more positive note today I saw the uni I'll hopefully be of to in september.
It was amazing. Seriously you can have a year studying in Australia and a year working in Florida. It's actually my dream life.
But, mum had to remind me how I might not be able to do all this.
I know if I don't recover I can't but for once I just wanted a day to dream of a life without ana.
I know she just cares and wants me to have a life. Its just upsetting to realise I might not actually move on from how I'm feeling now.
I guess I just need to keep proving to everyone, and myself, how I won't let that happen.