Today was tough.
I woke up feeling hopeless, like I didn't have the energy for this anymore.
But today made me realise I do.
It's tough fighting an eating disorder, it seems so get stronger and stronger everyday.
But actually the more you fight back, the weaker it becomes.
Today I could have woken up, skipped school and not eaten a thing.
But I didn't.
I put up a fight.
And yes it killed me to have to eat and then to go to school pretending everything was fine.
But I did it.
And then tonight something amazing happened.
When dinner was ready I was actually hungry.
I brought the bowl into my room and slowly began to eat it.
Within half an hour I had finished the plate.
I would much rather be full of life, surrounded by people I love.
And very soon I will be this way.
Of to the clinic tomorrow to be weighed :(. Wish me luck <3